Changes

Yeah, I can definitely agree with people that I've changed... a whole lot. Just a year ago, I believed that wearing make up was sinful and that cheerleading was obscene. Now, I'm a cheerleader and I wear makeup with no guilt. I've become extremely girly and I have become emotionally in tune with my writing. And the best of all, I've gotten closer to Christ. I look at friendships as gifts that can be taken for granted and most be held onto with honor, meaning, and delicacy. Life is not a game. I look deep into music and into the eyes of any human being. They say, "eyes are the windows to a person's life". I take my virginity as a precious gift I can only give to my husband. I live in a life of purity with much more power. Nowadays, I discover my weakness and my strengths and I put them together to make gifts and to discover new talents. I'm trying to build character and mold my moral character they way God wants his children to. (I am so thankful for having the ability to go to a Catholic private school) I've gotten over my fear of contacts(LOL) and now I can't live without them. I was always a girly girl and now I'm even more girly. Anything that glitters catches my eye.Everyday, I try to fill my aching heart full of hope, because Christ gives me strength to do anything I want to do. I'm going to work extremely hard in life. I am going to be the best cheerleader I can be. I am going to get so close to Him that when I lay down to rest at night, I would feel His hand in mine and see His face appear in my merriest of dreams.

<3

What's Going On, Girl?

So, what's going on with me? Hmmm let's see...
Besides the fact that this summer is full of crap, I'm taking the wheel for the very first time. I haven't got my learner's yet, but I'm stepping ahead. My daddy is teaching me. :) I almost crashed during my first lesson.(Which was yesterday, by the way)
"ROSE, THE BRAKES!"

"AHAHA!!!"

LOL, good times, good times. Had my second lesson today as well. It was not bad. I have a problem with driving straight after making a turn. I'm just so scared!!! Anyway, besides that cheerleading starts in a week. YAY! I am super excited and nervous, but I'm more excited than nervous. I love cheerleading so much! <3 So yeah, that's just about it. Oh, and I'm working on a novel. I had writer's block for three weeks. Ugh. Thank God it's all over now.

See? Told you my life is boring. Some Summer. The only fun thing I've been doing lately is shopping, and let me tell you those trips to the mall get a little boring. The reason why I can't go anywhere is because my parents have to work so...

Bring on the Money

YAY! I got a job! A very hard, fun, six hour long job.
Babysitting for cash.
I got a HUNDRED dollars total, for babysitting a seven year and an eight year old for three days straight. I went to the mall the very next day and bought a summer dress, a book, some hair bows, and some sunglasses. Shopping took my mind off a few things and it made me feel much better. I'm going to buy a purity ring(Which I really need) a book based on purity(Sex Has a Price Tag) and a Catholic Teen Bible (Which I really, really, need). I have several Bibles at home, but I NEED a teen Bible so I can understand God's Word. Oh and did I tell you that I'm starting a Pure Love Club at school? If you click on the "Pure Love Is True Love" link you will get a better understanding on the club. Basically, the club is designed to help each other live a life of purity and promote the message, "Save Sex For Marriage." (In other terms, if you're not married, don't have sex... at all)In this club we will have fundraisers, a "Pure Love Club Playlist", and all sorts of things. I have so many ideas. :) I asked a bunch of my friends on facebook and I have seventeen people so far. When school starts, the club will get alot of members.
I'm actually very disappointed from the responses that I've been getting from the guys. I only have a few who were willing to join without hesistation. I'm not trying to force people into joining, but I really want the boys to join. This club is going to turn out to be an all girls club because all the guys want sex 24/7. That's sad. Really sad. All I know is that, the guys who will be or who are in the club will turn out to be the best husbands out there, if they get married of course.

*That pic is so goregous!! I love the sunglasses and I was searching all over the mall for them.<3
Oh and thanks Aren for the comment. :) Please come again.

Friendship Breakups

Yeah. It's over. It was much more painful than I thought. Callie starting to cry and when we hung up she was begging me with text messages. I'm sorry, but I can't. I can't be friends with people who are not true to me or aren't even true to others. I've given this girl so many chances...
She left her bathing suit at my house, so I will have to mail it to her or let her come and pick it up.(when I'm not home) Her family probably hates me now. I feel terrible because she doesn't have any friends but, she chose to lie and use people and no one wants to be treated that way. I told Callie that I couldn't trust her since the day she spilled my secret, and that I don't appreciate the fact that she talks about MY friends. And you know what?
Callie didn't deny it at all.
Well, she said that she didn't know not to say anything about my secret(lie. I remember perfectly saying, "Don't tell so and so") and she thought that the secret wasn't that big of deal, etc.
Ugh.
I hate this summer.

Friendship Problems

I feel like crap.
Remember Callie?
Well, I'm done with her.
Why?
I've given this girl so many chances. I'm tired of her lies and her unneccesary attempts of achieving attention and her stupid gossip. You wouldn't believe the lies she comes up with.She uses MY friends and she talks about them(which really pisses me off) and she spilled a secret that I told her to shut up about. Jeez. After spending a weekend with her, I realized that I've let this girl use me this whole freshman year. What the heck is that?
I'm done. Seriously. I'm not talking to her anymore. She can call aaalll summer long if she wants to. I don't give a damn.

Yeah it's been awhile.
Sorry.
I've been feeling really really down about some personal issues lately. I lost a lot of sleep and appetite,but don't worry. I'm fine now. I've talked to some people and I emailed a priest. I'm okay now.

Nothing to discuss.

byebye.<3

I'm Waiting For The Guy...

"Who is sweet and gentle not only to me, but to others.
I am waiting for the guy who will protect me with his love."

Summer Boredom

AHH!!! I hate summer. My family and I hardly ever travel during the summer because my parents have to work for those atrocious school tuitions. Gosh, why didn't I get a job?!! What's wrong with me? LOL. I was so warped up with school that I forgot all about getting a job for the summer. Next summer I will be 16 (heck yeah!) and I'm definitely working... and driving(!!!) First, I need to get that blasted permit. Grrr.... I am so getting my permit next month. Most definitely. My dad is going to help me study and he's going to give me driving lessons. I am going to ACE driver's ed. I better ace it.



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Hahah you can tell I love xanga. My mom won't let me have one. Actually, she doesn't have an inkling that I have this blog. I only got my dad's approval. But, I don't think he even knows that I've got my blog now. Even my sisters don't have a clue and we share computers.I've been able to keep my blog to myself for almost four months now.
Wow.

I'm Waiting For The Guy...

Who will give me pure love.



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My Boys... or men <3

( David Archuleta,Alfred Enoch, Rupert Grint,Gabrielle Aubry, Chace Crawford, Nick Jonas, Zac Efron, Josh Groban and Enrique Iglesias)

WOW!!!!

I love Sundays. Somehow, they have some sort of a peaceful vibe to them, you know? Everyone is relaxed. Anyway, I really want to do something today. I just got back from church and I have nothing else to do. Maybe I should work on my story or finish the novel I've been reading. For some reason, I haven't been reading much this summer. I've been concentrating on writing and... other things. The "other things" are kind of complicated to explain. I bet you have no idea what I'm talking about! LOL.
*sigh*
Why am I always bored? Am I just a boring person?


Isn't that picture super cool?! Knitted cupcakes! Sweet. I should try that.

This is so sweet <3

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Gosh, I bet you can tell that I'm super bored. :( Lol, I've updated like, five times today.

I'm Waiting For The Guy...

" Who will follow Christ
and take me with him."



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Summer Love<3

Hahah I LOVE photography. <3
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www.xanga.com/trashh_talk
sh0rtyt0oflyy's Xanga Site
ShophiaChristinaLauren's Xanga Site
takingaholdofme's Xanga Site

Ballet Recital

Hahaha I have a ballet recital and guess who's skipping it?
ME!
I know shameful, but I REALLY REALLY hate ballet. And since I've missed so many practices, I can hardly remember the routine. I attended the dress rehearsals and all and then I found out that there's another routine I have to learn and well, you can say I give up after that. Oh, gosh do you think I'm doing a horrible thing? I mean, I'm terrible with ballet! I guarantee you that I would of messed up and make my class look bad in front of everybody. I feel horrible now, because my mom paid for the costume and everything(Somehow, I've misplaced it. Ugh, I'm so stupid sometimes) but, she didn't argue with me about skipping the recital. (Which starts in ten minutes as I sit here typing this) She thought dance was a waste of money. I have to agree. I love dancing and all but, it's just too demanding. Sports of better. You get into shape faster.

Anyway, Lexi called me and invited me to go on vacay with her sometime this month! YAY! We're going to a large resort in North Carolina where they have the best ice cream and beach parties. I am super excited. Lexi hopes that I will meet someone( a boy, *cough *cough*) new. LOL! I hope so too!

Quote of the day

"It's hard to speak to your
hearts when all I see is your parts."
- Confessions of a Youth Paster

WHOA. Jennifer's Quincenra aka(Sweet 15) was absolutely AMAZING!!!!! Wow. It was like one of those Super Sweet 16 parties. It was like a big wedding ceremony with lots of food, dancing, and singing. What a wonderful experience! I had so much fun! And, Jennifer looked so gorgeous in her gown. She's so beautiful. I can't get over that. We were partying all night. It was fantastic. And now, I'm really tired and I'm going to church later this afternoon. LOL. I hope I don't fall asleep.
*sigh*
It's June. Nothing else to look forward to but cheer camp which is a month away. I have a stupid ballet recital next weekend and I am dreading it. I haven't shown up for practice(I have my reasons) for ages. But honestly, I could care less. The recital is just for our parents and I know for sure that I'm going to mess up. For one thing, people have to pay to watch and not a lot of people are going to show up. Yay. Gosh, what a waste of a year. I absolutely loath ballet. It's too boring... too graceful.