A brand new story

So summer has come and gone.

I'll be attending college in three weeks. It's amazing. I've had this blog for all of highschool, and I still have it for college. Sure, I haven't updated in months, days, and that's because I've had many things going on and of course, enduring the most intense writer's block I have ever had. I also believe that the blog world is slowly dwindling down.

I don't like that.

I now have a new goal- never stop blogging. I now have a brand new story.

As of right now, I am launching my modeling career one day at a time. It isn't easy, and boy it's an investment, but it's totally worth it. I have a really big shoot coming up very soon. Besides that, I've declared myself officially and ludicrously in love. It'll be seven months next week. I couldn't be happier.

And now marks the beginning of my brand new story.

I'm still here...

I just need a little inspiration.

A push, or better yet a shove.

A real hard one.

Prayer for the Broken Hearted

“God, you care deeply for broken-hearted people. This is a promise you make: You are close. We pray for all those who are crippled by broken relationships. Our hearts take the blow of disappointment. We feel crushed because our hopes are dashed. God, heal broken hearts. We cannot fix our own wounds. But you can. If pieces of our heart have been lost, or are held captive by another, recover them and bring them back to us and miraculously “put us back together” so that our heart is whole again. You are a mender of broken hearts. We ask for this miracle, in the name of Jesus.”

You have no idea...

How much highschool has changed me.

Want proof? Just check out my previous posts from three years ago.

I really want to elaborate on this, because it's so important and I want you readers to know. Soon, very soon when I have more time, I will speak up.

After all, you are my lovely strangers...

Who know me best.

Dear God

Dear God,

I am just so happy to be alive.

Nothing amazing or extravagant has happened to me at the moment, but tonight I'm feeling really at ease. Peaceful...

I know good things are coming. I have faith in You. I have no doubt in my mind.

You know.

I wish I can see your beautiful face, Lord. I picture you as a gentle and loving Grandfather. When I'm feeling melancholy, I wish you had a cellphone. But I love prayer so much.

My heart loves it more.

My heart and I... well, we're two separate people. My mind takes over my body, and my heart takes over my soul. Does that make sense? My heart is the most powerful tool that is apart of me. It can override everything. Even the definition of my soul...

What is my soul? ...WHO am I, Lord?

I've been feeling so distant from You. I'm longing for You. I don't want to lose this... this....

18th Birthday

I AM so happy.

AND excited.

I'm finally 18. God is SO good. Thankyou so much for giving me another year.

TODAY IS GOING TO BE AMAZING. 18th birthday on a Saturday? SUCH A GIFT.

February 3rd

I've been thinking about you alot. Yeah... you.

This blog here that I've had for nearly three years now. The twenty fifth will mark the date. I'm not letting this blog go, but I've come to terms that I honestly do not have much time to update frequently anymore. It's second semester senior year and there's still a lot things for me to do. I was terribly occupied last month and I will continue to be occupied. I love this blog though, to bits and pieces and I do appreciate my readers. I hope to pick up blogging when summer strikes up again. Ah summer. I'm so sick of this cold weather.

But anywho, I'm not necessarily going on a long 'hiatus'. I will update again. Maybe sometime next week, or the week after that I don't know...

Life has been pretty good. School is becoming a real drag. I'm getting closer and closer to my friends each day though, which would make leaving highschool even harder. I actually love highschool and I will hope to post a story about my highschool years. I'm graduating on May 14, and I'm fighting senioritis. My grades are alright, but I'm really trying to improve. I'm turning 18 in two days and today, I'm celebrating my first full month with a extremely special boy.

I have finally found Troy.

And yes, I think it's about time that I get rid of CHRISTMAS MUSIC on here. Lol:). I miss the holidays...