You have no idea...

How much highschool has changed me.

Want proof? Just check out my previous posts from three years ago.

I really want to elaborate on this, because it's so important and I want you readers to know. Soon, very soon when I have more time, I will speak up.

After all, you are my lovely strangers...

Who know me best.

Dear God

Dear God,

I am just so happy to be alive.

Nothing amazing or extravagant has happened to me at the moment, but tonight I'm feeling really at ease. Peaceful...

I know good things are coming. I have faith in You. I have no doubt in my mind.

You know.

I wish I can see your beautiful face, Lord. I picture you as a gentle and loving Grandfather. When I'm feeling melancholy, I wish you had a cellphone. But I love prayer so much.

My heart loves it more.

My heart and I... well, we're two separate people. My mind takes over my body, and my heart takes over my soul. Does that make sense? My heart is the most powerful tool that is apart of me. It can override everything. Even the definition of my soul...

What is my soul? ...WHO am I, Lord?

I've been feeling so distant from You. I'm longing for You. I don't want to lose this... this....

18th Birthday

I AM so happy.

AND excited.

I'm finally 18. God is SO good. Thankyou so much for giving me another year.

TODAY IS GOING TO BE AMAZING. 18th birthday on a Saturday? SUCH A GIFT.

February 3rd

I've been thinking about you alot. Yeah... you.

This blog here that I've had for nearly three years now. The twenty fifth will mark the date. I'm not letting this blog go, but I've come to terms that I honestly do not have much time to update frequently anymore. It's second semester senior year and there's still a lot things for me to do. I was terribly occupied last month and I will continue to be occupied. I love this blog though, to bits and pieces and I do appreciate my readers. I hope to pick up blogging when summer strikes up again. Ah summer. I'm so sick of this cold weather.

But anywho, I'm not necessarily going on a long 'hiatus'. I will update again. Maybe sometime next week, or the week after that I don't know...

Life has been pretty good. School is becoming a real drag. I'm getting closer and closer to my friends each day though, which would make leaving highschool even harder. I actually love highschool and I will hope to post a story about my highschool years. I'm graduating on May 14, and I'm fighting senioritis. My grades are alright, but I'm really trying to improve. I'm turning 18 in two days and today, I'm celebrating my first full month with a extremely special boy.

I have finally found Troy.

And yes, I think it's about time that I get rid of CHRISTMAS MUSIC on here. Lol:). I miss the holidays...

Dear December

Dear December.

Well, aren't you just so beautiful?

It's Christmas, there's love, there's hope.

And guess what, December?

I think I've discovered myself.

I've lost two people who were in my life- one was a friend of a lifetime, and the other was more of a friend and he was a very bad, bad, egg. This bad egg was getting so rotten, that I really had to throw it out, because he was eating away my heart. However, I was not planning on breaking ties with a friend. I tried not to cry about it. All I can do is pray and hope everything's alright.

December, I've learned that I'm terribly sensitive. But I feel like that helps me be compassionate towards others. I've also learned that modeling has really made me self-conscious to the point that I'm constantly fussing over my makeup and appearance. It's sad, because I'm insecure. I even redo my makeup at school. I'm never really satisfied. But other than that, I'm feeling okay.

And December, I'm blessed with an angel. Seriously.Honestly. Truly...

Let's hope this isn't a trap.

My 11:11 wish...

Beautiful Christmas

Gosh, there's so many things to do in this life God has blesses us with.

It's just simply so... beautiful.

I really wish I've realized this before. But God has been waiting for me to pour my heart into His. And I have....

All over again. It's the perfect feeling. So so so perfect.

Life is hitting me good. I'm graduating from highschool in five months. I must say, I will never ever forget these precious four years. I know as I get older, I would want them back. And I have so many dreams, goals, and ambitions that are hungrily lurking through my mind. They are ready to be born. But, I can't do anything without Christ. He gives me all strength. Make God your best friend, love.

It's the best feeling in the world.

I see a beautiful sunrise, sunset, or the glistening pouring rain and I smile from the beauty of it all...

It's God.

I am not an outdoors girl, and I will only go camping in a cabin, but I cannot deny that God's nature makes me think. Boy! When I see something pretty out there, my mind spins like a wheel with all sorts of memories. Even when I hear a pretty singing voice, I begin to think.I am aware that I think differently than most people.

My Christmas wish will be to never lose sight of Christ and His love.

Holiday Happiness

I literally woke up this morning with a smile on my face.

I'm just feeling really happy, I'm enjoying life.

Everything's going wonderfully. I praise God everyday.

I got out of an unhealthy relationship by the grace of God and I couldn't be happier.

I am surrounded by friends who I love ever so dearly,and we're enjoying every bit of our senior year.

It's Christmas, loves.

Don't forget about Jesus.

I apologize for my lack of updates. Time is out of control. But now that I am on break, expect a lot more updates.

I promise.