&& They think we're crazy 'cause we're teenagers

So it's been almost two weeks right? Yeah well things have happened. Just to let you know, this blog isn't just going revolve around Chris Angel(NOT the magician haha.) As you have probably guessed, I have never been in a well... I wouldn't call what Chris and I have relationship(yet) but, you know what I mean right? I'm new to all this extra attention. I've never met any guy wanting to be with me the way he does, nonetheless meet an incredible guy like him. The reason why I bring Chris up so much, is because he's part of the many blessings I received from Jesus Christ the day after my life changing weekend at Camp Covecrest. I'm telling you my readers, God sent Chris and I to each other for a reason. We had a spiritual connection last Sunday through prayer. I could feel the fire seeping through the receiver. We didn't want to hang up... we never do. Chris wants me to come to his church and I want to invite him to mine. I told him that we should worship together. It will draw us closer and most importantly to Jesus Christ. "I love how you're so religious, Rose." he said, quietly. "Makes me want to become a better person. You set me on the right track." We try to prayer before we hang up everytime we talk on the phone.

Listen, what Chris and I have is special, and it's rare. The instant chemistry, the openess, the spiritual connection all happening at once. Our feelings for each other are intense. It's not love, oh certainly it's not. But it's a heart burning infatutation and we express this openly with each other. Evan, one of my best friends in the whole world told me this:"Rose, you're going to remember this. This is different, this is rare." This kind of frienship/ "getting there relationship" is something that not everyone would understand. My bestfriend, my sister doesn't. She fears of me getting hurt by him, she fears the broken heart. And you know what? It's going to happen. I am going to get hurt and that's life. No one goes through in life without going through some sort of pain. My mother suspects that there's something going on between me and Chris. She thinks it's all nonsense because we're teenagers. Honestly, it's like she doesn't want me to be interested in boys. If only... if only she took the time to actually listen and understand. All of this is not a joke, because Chris is what I prayed for.

God sent him to me, and Chris believes the same for him. God is the only One who knows my desires. He knew I wanted to be admired by a guy and how I felt so inadequate for anyone. He knew that I wanted to see a guy look at me with awe and pure beauty. This something my mom wouldn't even care to understand. "Such nonsense, she would hiss. "You're kids. Teenagers are just kids." I honestly think that she fails to understand that teenagers can actually "feel" things too. But, I'm not going to hide anything from my mother. That's just not right. When Chris and I together someday(If it is your will, Lord) I will tell her and my father both. I will prove to them that the feelings I have for this boy isn't kiddish, but it's not "marriage serious"either. I'm going to ask God what He wants for me to do. My fear is losing Chris Angel. I told him this last Tuesday night and I was tears. Not only for that reason, but I compeletly broke down when my mother kept harassing me to get off the phone. I cried because, I think she's trying to break me away from Chris, break me away from this blessing that had come out so suddenly. I know that she knows what has been going on lately. And, it's making my mother irate. So yes, I couldn't hold back the tears any longer,

(I'm such a baby!) and right there Chris was alarmed. "Rose, why are you crying?!" Then right on there, I spilled me guts and I told him everything that's been going on. He told me everything too. He told me how he felt about me and that he understood my mother's concern. Here are snippets of the convo I remember(not in order): "You're crying over me? You know how special that makes me feel? "I'm going to take care of you, Rose..." You mean alot to me..." And then he went on and told me everything he liked about me. " You're beautiful, you're smart, you're a good cheerleader...(etc) "You're perfect. And you're different, Rose. Just like me." And you know what else I like about you? You tell me how you feel." "I didn't want to let go..."( he was talkingg about us hugging a thousand times before he left the football game)This is all I remember. So anyway, while we were speaking, my sister slides a note under my door. I leave my desk and retrieve from the ground. I read it while Chris is speaking to me and I tell him about the letter. "She's worried about me." I whimpered. And I broke down. Once again. :/ "Baby, please stop crying, he begged. Baby, please stop crying." Thinking about all of this brings me chills.

Chris is special to me. He has influenced my spiritual life and everything. And the things he says to me... wow. My prince charming. His words repeat inside my head like lyrics to a song, over and over. Chris told me this(be aware it's not one conversation):"You are the most amazing thing that has happened to me... You make me happy... Lord, please let me get lost in her eyes..." I'm single now, but not for long. It's going to be surprise..." :) "I wanna see you too and pick you up and be like superman for a minute... I want to carry you. " And about our first date he said, "When we hugged and when you looked at me, I was like man, I wanna kiss her. But I was like no, this is the first date!" Aww! I was actually thinking about kissing him too! Not at the moment though. He's too sweet. He even dedicated a song to me! Last Thursday night he randomly sent me a text and it read, "Listen to my ringback." At the time, I was talking to God about him just as he sent me a message! (We hadn't talked that day either and it was really late at night. I kept the text, because it has so much meaning) WOW.
So I called him and there's this beautiful song!! Angel of God. The lyrics are beautiful...
"God of angel, she has a smile that makes me wanna sing...."
He called me after I hung up and he said, "You like it?"
"Oh my gosh, I like it!" I said, happily.
"Yeah well, Chris said quietly, "It's for you. I listened to that song and it reminds me of you. You have such a pretty smile, Rose. And you're always so happy.
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I couldn't believe this! Chris dedicated a song to me. He started singing it on the phone too. LOL. He's soo sweet! I remember the night of our date, he called me and he kept saying that I was so pretty and I had a pretty face and everything. "You're such a sweetheart, Rose. I can't go a day without your 'sweetness'. He always tells me how much he appreciates me.

I wrote Chris a poem, and I put my heart into it... really. The writing almost took me two serious hours.I'm going to edit and revise it and make it look pretty. I'm giving it to him on Homecoming night. He came up a poem about me too, on the telephone and it's so cute! He's too funny and his attempt to rhyme was actually not that bad. I told him to write it down, because his words were so precious. He's too cute. :) He got jealous, because I have a celebrity crush on Enrique Igelias (singer) and he saw the comment I made on my friend's pic of Enrique on facebook. "Oh and by the way, who's Enrique? You cheating on me, Rose?" (Hahah he was joking, but I could tell he was totally jealous. And we're not even "together" yet.)

I hope you understand what's happening to me, my readers. Not just about Chris Angel, but about everything that's been going on with me. Thanks for listening. Tell me what you think.

You may call me crazy, and you may call me stupid but hey, this is here is for real. I know I am not in love. I have trouble believing that teenagers can fall in true love. My sister met this couple, who met at sixteen and from there on out, stayed together. Seven years later, they got married. Amazing, isn't it?
Times are hard, folks. We all need comfort and love. I'm not putting any bad stuff on here. Just happy things. :) I've been in such joy for so long that, I find myself smiling everyday with true happiness. God's love is powerful, God's love is everlasting. "For greater things are still to come, and greater things are still to be done in this city."