It's A Sad World

Society. I must ask you now.Do you Remember The Time when a man inspired us to not Stop until We Had Enough? And once we did, he told us to Beat It.The Man in the mirror saw himself in Black and White.Because he realized it would take a Thriller to Heal the World.Do we mourn the loss of an icon? Does death seem more real to us now?Heroes aren't supposed to die.They're supposed to live forever.Our childhoods were supposed to always last.Our dreams are suppose to keep us alive. Perhaps the part of us that still believed in Neverland died a long time ago. And since we stopped believing in our imaginations, we had to destroy anybody who didn't give up on theirs.I wonder if the jokes will stop now. Now that he has lost his face, is he finally beautiful enough for society?Now that he has angel wings, is he finally white enough for the media?Now that he is gone, how many comedians have to re-write their act?This is what we do humanity. We take something beautiful and destroy it.

We do it to our bodies. We do it to our God. And we do it to our Earth.So today, we don't mourn the loss of an icon.We mourn the loss of what the icon represented in our own consciousness.We mourn the loss of our dreams. Our imagination. Our childhood.Do you remember the time? Do you remember the time?Back when we can play without fear of being judged.Back when we can fly without the fear of falling down.Back when we could smile, for absolutely no reason at all.We have spent so much time working, that we have forgot how to play.We have spent so much time standing still in our lives, that we have forgot how to dance.Not only have we robbed ourselves of our childhood dreams, but we have criticized others for following theirs.Perhaps Michael is now singing with God.Perhaps he is flying with Peter Pan.Perhaps he is now moon walking on the clouds of heaven.Wherever he is, I know that he is finally free.Free to be who he is, rather than a prisoner of who he was.

We haven't lost an entertainer. We have lost ourselves.And his death didn't happen in June of 2009. It happened many years ago.The killers of our inner child. The judges of our own fate. The builders of our own prisons.

Michael Jackson. I pray that you don't rest in peace.....I hope that you dance in it.

Credit: -www.travelingpoet.com by Apollo Poetry

Michael Jackson's life is such a tradegy. It is the saddest life story I have ever known in my entire life. Believe it.

My Musical Hero

I was so in love.
When I was a little girl, my sister and I would glue our eyes to the television whenever his face appeared. My parents bought every single album and we've seen every single music video. My sister and I even performed some of his songs on our home videos. When I was five, I wanted to marry him. To me, he seemed so perfect and so beautiful. His red jacket from his video, 'Beat It',(I want a red jacket just like his.) his stunning white glove, and the moonwalk... wow. That man can move. Michael was the hottest bad boy in his other hit video, "Bad." It troubled me that Michael had a skin disorder and had gotten plastic surgery several times. && it turned out that he was never satisfied with himself with anything-from performing to his self-image. My family and I are intrigued and hooked on his God-given, "nobody can do it like me", musical talent. I am hurt and shocked by this sudden loss. It's a nightmare! My little cousin in London was shaken with tears and emotion because he wanted to meet Michael so very badly. I went to bed totally distraught and woke up completely saddened.

I watched all of his music videos with my sisters, reminiscing.My heart has some sort of pain banging inside of it. Michael Jackson was truly the greatest artist of all time. All the guys wanted to be him- to dance and sing like him, and the girls would past out at his concerts, and most of the time it wasn't from the heat! Seriously.He did a lot of charity as well(donating millions of dollars) and has effected the whole world. Literally.Michael Jackson is number three on the 'Top Superstars' list. (First is The Beatles, and the Second Elvis Presley) He broke many, many, racial barriers especially in music. (MTV refused to play his music a long time ago.)Michael Jackson is a global superstar. The King of Pop.He is my musical hero, a huge part of my childhood. When I listen to his music, I remember the good old days, those sunny day '90s. There is truly && honestly no one like him.I will never forget him, never ever. He's in a better place now. May he rest in peace, the peace that he never did receive here on earth.I pray for his family, fans, and friends. Michael Jackson will suffer no more.

Summer Love

There's no shame in writing about love. After all, God is love.
For a second, I was thinking that this blog was becoming a 'boylog.'
Then I realized that, love will never fail to cause my heart to flutter nor will I ever grow tired of writing about it. && I think- for sure, Captain Love will take me on a little ride on his loveboat.
It's Summer, darlings.
The sun becomes our enemy, our bestfriend, and the perfect backround for a kiss. Oh how my heart longs for the beach-to wear my pretty pink bikni and rage through the tasteful ocean waves with a surfboard. It's the most beautiful time of year for concerts and parties, as well as getting to know somebody. As of June 22, 2009 I have fallen in love with this beauty called, Summer. I just love the breeze Summer that brings, dancing wildly in hair. And these nights, oh these pretty summer nights, shining so beautifully like Hollywood City lights.It brings me my sweetest lullabys and I dream of happy things.My sister,Caroline is getting her first kiss this summer. She's fifteen. That's when I got mine at fifteen as well. :) I remember that kiss like a fond childhood memory. I remember I felt fireworks exploding inside of me, causing my face to break into a glittery beam. Literally.
My Silly, Silly Texting Machine.
From Stephanie Garcia at 4:46 pm June 22:Would you kiss Brody?
Me at 4:47 pm:Yeah lol!
Stephanie Garcia at 4:50 pm:Awwww lol!
Me at 4:50pm: Lol why?
Stephanie Garcia at 4:53 pm: Cause I'm sure he wants to kiss you too.
Me at 4:57pm:Aw :) But I want to take it slow with him. But of course I would kiss him. I like him!
Stephanie Garcia at 6:11 pm:Good :)
Me at 6:58pm: Lol! How many gf has he had?
Stephanie Garcia at 7:06pm:He's never had one. He kinda had one earlier this year, but they were never official. But he has kissed girls before and stuff. I don't think he's gone that far though.
Me at 7:00 pm: I was just want to keep things pure with Brody.
Stephanie Garcia at 7:05 pm: I understand.

Starting next week, I will start a mini story series called, Ocean Lyrics. A three day supply full of lyrics , old personal diary entries, Bible verses and stories about the joy of love. So clear your mind, grab your flipflops, your car keys, your friends and your cute bikinis and head down to Huntington Beach. Oh and don't forget the Starbucks.









Fun fact about Rose Valentine: She hates celery.

11:11

My sister and I always make wishes at 11:11.
But we do it in such a way as if we are praying... which we are anyway. We bow our heads and then we do the sign of the cross. Some of our wishes have come true. I pray for success in tumbling and my developing friendship with Brody Mingram. Everything is going well between us. We went on our second date last night. We watched another movie, 'The Proposal.' The date was nice and low-key. I was having a really bad hair day, so I hope he didn't mind.We didn't hold hands or wrap arms, but we sat rather close. I think it's best that I treat Brody as a brother, a best friend instead jumping into the physical stuff such as kissing, and act like a couple. I'm not really big fan of the physical stuff. The farthest I would go is kissing. I think innocence and purity in a relationship is the cutest and the most sweetest thing. That's what God wants. I want to get closer to Brody, because he's a great guy and I always feel at ease whenever I'm around him. I'm a hyper girl who tends to freak alot, so that says alot about this guy.

I try to surround myself with people whom I can praise and worship with. I'm trying to see where Brody places Christ in his life. I don't know much about his spiritual backround, but I know that he goes to church every Sunday. My spiritual life is very important and I want to be with someone who I can worship with. I believe that a godless relationship is a failing relationship. I'm getting God's permission on this boy. He know who I belong with, but lately I feel as if I'm better off alone. Lord, do you want me to be friends with Brody or later on become more than that?
&&
Jessica has been trashing me alot lately.
Saying that I'm this & I'm that.
"You act like a little girl with those bows in your hair, daddy's little princess- the typical cheerleader. Cheerleaders are dumb, it's just stupid.You look like a toddler. No older guys will want you." And at this rate, you're going to get married at like, 40 if you keep moving at this pace."

"I'm so tired of those people trashing you, Rose. You've done nothing wrong.You're a great person. I think that you are a very sweet girl, but you need to be more assertive. Don't let Jessica talk to you like that."

"Don't talk to her, Rose. Jessica is really mean.She acts like she's all experience and she isn't. First of all, she has no business dating college guys like that. She's so desperate meeting random guys online and having long distance relationships. "
I laugh.
I let her step all over me. I can't do that. Why must I do that? Jessica doesn't know anything. Supposedly, she thinks Brody isn't good enough. PLEASE, girl. You don't even know him. Shut your mouth. Why are yall going so slow? You're boring, Rose. You have got to remember that Brody is a sixteen year old boy. At least give him a kiss or something! Yall should be holding hands already. You two are just going to end up as friends.
Shut your mouth, Jessica. Just shut it.
I'm so tired- no, I'm so sick of her.

The Names That I adore

GIRLS

1. Stassi (Nastassia) <3

2. Audrina

3.Gisbelle

4. Cristelle

5.Hillary

6. Courtney

7. Cameron

8.Kristen
9. Kaley(or Kailey)

10.Crystalina

11.Mikela


BOYS
1. Brody <3

2. Adam

3.Roberto

4.Rylan

5.Chandler

6.Jeremiah

7.Rayne

8.Lyric

9.Giovonnie

10.Titus

11.Andrew

Last Names:

1. Love

2.Paris(my best friend's last name. Natalia Paris. Isn't that pretty? =)

3.Angel

4.Carboni

6.Carmicheal

7.Menefee

What names do you like? :D

You need to talk to me

Brody and I talked last night.
I couldn't stop laughing.
Not because that boy has a killer sense of humor, but I was just so nervous.
Yeah, I know. Way to calm down, Rose.
Dialing Brody's number was actually pretty difficult. Come to think of it, I don't talk to many guys. I have a nice crowd of good guyfriends, but I'm just not that close. I'm very close to Liam Wang and I use to be "brother and sister" with James Kaferney(remember him, girls? I mentioned him a lot on here) but James and I don't talk anymore. I sort of kept my distance.
Long story.
Anyway, I can't talk to guys who I am romantically interested in. I prayed for courage before I dialed Brody's number. I'm telling you now girls, that I can't date. I am such an awkward dater. And I am beginning to believe that because of my quote on quote,"girliness."And I giggle.
A whole lot.
"Rose, you do have a nervous laugh and really, you laugh at nothing... all the time. my sister commented.
I pouted.
"Like, seriously you were laughing the whole time at the resturant when that hot waiter boy cracked a joke. You always giggle when you're talking to like, any guy."
I did too much of it last night.
"You are such a giggler, Rose." Brody stated. I immediately got a hold of myself. "I'm sorry, um am I annoying you?"
"No, it's fine I mean, I just want to know what's funny, haha!"
I seriously could not help it. When there was silence of the phone, I giggled some more to make up for what I should of been discussing with him- the text. The "what are we?" text. That's very important. I tried to bring it up. "Um... um..."
Ugh.
After last nights conversation, I'm actually having second thoughts on Brody. Why? I have my reasons. Last Saturday night, we didn't even mention our "possibility" date on Sunday. Monday I asked him if he wanted to hang sometime this week. No mention of that either. And one major thing- he texts. Unnecessarily. I didn't mention that before and after the movie, Brody was texting. And when we were on the phone for the very first time, he was texting then as well! I'm sure he was just as nervous as I was but, that's not an excuse to be disrespectful. I see it like this:"Do you want to be on this date with me or not?" "Do you want to talk to me or not?" So, of course I confronted Brody about it last night. "Who are you texting? I scoffed."I mean, I'm not trying to sound bossy or anything, but you're on the phone with somebody." And then, Brody came up with a silly excuse of how the beeping noise gets really annoying and it lasts forever (yeah sure.) if he doesn't answer the text soon.
Fine. Whatever.
?
Oh, and did I mention that for a second, I thought he hung up on me? Just a few seconds before that happened, Brody threatened to hang up on me because I said, "So, aren't you happy that the Lakers won the NBA championships?" He was just joking, and so was I, and then before I knew it, I heard silence on the other end. Outraged, I sent Brody a, "Did you hang up on me?" text and called Jessica. She got furious. "You're trying to make conversation and then HE HANGS UP? Get that boy on the phone, Rose." " No, Jessica. I refused, firmly. "That's really not necessary, I mean-" Then Brody called me back a few miuntes later and told me that the battery in his phone was dying. "I didn't hang up on you." I switched lines and told Jessica the news. "Bull crap."She spat."But, I'll leave you to talk to him." What was wrong with Brody last night? I mean, he's a nice guy and everything but, he doesn't know how to make phone conversation... at all. I couldn't help but get very frustrated. In my head I'm shouting, "HEY. Boy, I thought you LIKE me, so wouldn't you want to ,I don't know... TALK to me?"

Tonight will be better, and I'm going to tell Brody firmly that texting while you're on the phone with not only me, but with other people is very disrespectful. And gosh, I'm sitting here trying to get to know this boy who is interested in me, and he's barely making any effort to make an active conversation. I mean I know Brody is into me, because he was being flirty last night. He was trying to be funny by twisitng everything that I said,making jokes, etc, Still, Jessica got very cross. "He was texting while yall where on the phone? She hissed. "There is something wrong with him And this is the very reason why I don't date guys our age. He's just an immature sixteen year old boy. See, people who text like him don't have any people skills." I have to say that my old boyfriend, Chris Angel was much better with communication than Brody, and they're the same age. I know it's not fair to compare Brody with Chris, but it's very true. Chris talked a lot and we would talk for hours. No awkward silences... ever. But Brody is sweet and I really do like him. I'm not going to forget the feelings I had when he held my hand and wrapped his arms around me.

& the wall kept tumbling down?

& the wall kept tumbling down?

Tumbling down?

Uh no.

Rewind, please!

Me: "Yeah so, what are you up to?"

Brody:"Nothing really. Just wondering, what do you think of me?"

At this moment I burst out laughing... wait, what?

Me:"I think that you are a really sweet, cute, funny, and a smart person. Someone who is really cool and is easy to talk to." :)

I felt my heart do something funny. This was probably the most semi- uncomfortable texting conversation I have ever had. Where was this leading to?

Brody: "Oh ok cool. Like, any feelings for me?"
Oh my gosh, why is he being so straight forward?! My heart was pounding. I DO feel something for Brody... don't I? Why of course there some sparks there, but they're not very strong or maybe I'm forcing them to it's weakest point.

Me:"Yes. Why are you asking?"

Brody: "I am just wondering what kind of level we are on that's all. I am beginning to like you too. =D

Me:"I was thinking that too,actually. Well, what do you think of me?"

Brody:"Cool =p. I think that you are just everything and that you're beautiful and don't have sass lol."

I was beaming.

Me: "Aw you really think so?"

Brody: "Ya. =D

Me:" :D. You made my night."

& the wall kept tumbling down?

Brody: "Aww really?" =D

Me:"Yeah. I can't stop smiling. :)

I need to repair my wall, or actually start building it. So far, I'm letting Brody Mingram in further and further. I'm becoming too available. I'm not handing out my heart to him. A huge part of me feels that we're definitely moving a lot faster than our hearts wants us to. I want to pull up the strongest guard. How can he chase after me if I'm already making myself a target? We haven't even know each other for a month. This can't just become a summer fling, because someday in the near future, I want something much more than that.