The Perfect Love

Wait until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone, with giving yourself totally, unreservedly, to Me alone. I love you, my child. But until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another as you desire to be until you are united with Me, exclusive or anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires and belongings. I want you to stop planning and stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan that exists-one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the very best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep your eyes on Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I AM. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must be patient.

Don't be anxious.
Don't worry.
Don't look around at the things others have. Don't look at the things you think you want. Just keep looking to Me, or you will miss what I want to give you. And then, when you are ready, I will surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you could ever dream. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready... until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me... and this is perfect love.

-Theology of the Body. Chapter One pg 16. 'Created for love.'

Don't you want the perfect love, my readers? Look to God. And look up at the Cross.
You will know then, for this I'm sure. This is where my main focus in life is right now- becoming satisfied with God's love. Oh how He loves us so. He is so real, my darlings. If only I can feel His embrace. I would surly melt in His arms. I want a godly and holy relationship with a special boy one day. He will give me the love and respect that my first love failed to give me. That boy will give me what I deserve. And we could praise God through song together. Finding this particular boy, my Troy has become a bit of obsession since I've dreamt of him. I need to focus on God, not on boys. My friends may be moving faster than me- having their phones going off daily, meeting up guys and having fun on dates, but I know God has someone for me too. My heart has alot to offer. I will respect and cherish that boy.

Day by day, I begin to care less about the 'dating game' and just eye my dreams and what God wants me to do. Someday soon, I will be chased. I know I'm beautiful, because God made me. Just like Evan said, I don't need a guy to tell me that. I gave up buying hair bows and ribbons for Lent, and everyday I keep my promise to the Lord. I have over sixty, I think.I'm drawing closer to Evan too. And that's what I like.
That's my girl right there. :)

JC

I found someone who understands my heart.
God.
God knows it so well. He knows my heart much better than I do. Oh how I am so in love. I have offically declared Jesus has my boyfriend. He can be yours too, girls. :) Saturday night, I realized that my spiritual life will never be the same. My beautiful friend, Precious invited me to a youth conference at her church Saturday night. For some odd reason, I thought it was a church youth party of some sort. Precious talked about dancing and music, so I automatically assumed it was a church party. I got super excited about meeting new people(particulary boys) and dancing the night away. "I want you to meet this guy that I'm like so in love with! Precious had gushed to me on facebook. "His name is JC. Oh, cute boy! I thought. But when I arrived at the church, I soon realized that my friend meant JC, as in Jesus Christ. Why on earth was my mind centered on boys?

I thought Precious was talking about a crush! The youth conference was simply amazing, and I did find Jesus Christ. The music was upbeat and fun to dance to, but I'm not use to worshipping that way. I'm Catholic and worshipping is a bit quieter. I didn't know how to dance to the wonderful music of praise without feeling out of place.I did feel out of place though. People were staring at me, but I didn't mind. I was focusing on Christ. Oh, man what a night. It was one of the most amazing nights of my life. I love you, Jesus. Oh, praise Jesus. The Pastor there knew my heart. She knew it so well, as if my heart was a storybook bursting out of my body for the whole world to read. She called me on stage to give me a blessing, and I was nervous. She then began like this: "So many are jealous of you because of your beauty."
Record scratch.
Hold on, what?

At this point, I did not meet the Pastor's eyes. I just contined to listen. My eyes grew larger as she began to speak the truth- the truth of my heart. "You are more than a pretty face. You want people to look at your heart. Look at my heart, that's not who I am, Look at my heart!" Tears began to trickle down my face and as the Pastor went on talking, I began to sob how I have never burst before. Everything the Pastor was the truth. I could not believe it. She was reading my heart. She knows my heart. "Don't give away anything. Don't give away your heart, your clothes, don't give away anything. The Lord knows that you want to fit in, but you will never fit in, Rose. God said you will never fit in because...." And what also shocked me was that she knew my secret identity. If I tell you readers my secret, you may not believe me. Soon, don't you worry I will tell you. I just have to figure out a way to tell you all. "You want to please God.... sometimes when you walk down that hallway people think, 'oh she thinks she's tis, oh she thinks she's that and then people make fun of the way you talk." I was howling at that time, and the Pastor locked me in a tight embrace.

Everything she was saying was the TRUTH. She then began speaking in some sort of tongue I could not understand. I knew it was the Holy Spirit speaking through her.My feet were planted on that stage for ages, but I wasn't the only one. I began to thank Jesus over and over and over. The pastor wiped my face with tissues. One of the musicians at the church came over to me and we started to talk. She began to talk. She asked me questions as well. And also began to speak in some sort of tongue. The Holy Spirit." I am so inspired by you, Rose. You're 16 and you found Christ. When I was 16 I didn't know who He was. I'm 34, I now know who He is." Man. What a night.

"She knew how I was feeling and everything!" I exclaimed to Precious that night. We were sitting outside the church eating pizza. Precious smiled. "She's a prophet." When I arrived home late that night, I got this in my facebook inbox from a friend:

"Ive noticed you have many great things on your status all the time such as the one you have right now, everything about God and Jesus, you really inspire me every time I read your posts but I have a question, its semi a problem but how do you do that? How are you so faithful? Ive tried so many times, I go to church, I praise God every sunday and at retreats but after awhile, I mean after the retreats and all the good stuff I go back to who I was when I said to myself, Ive changed, I dont know where I am right now in my spiritual life but yeah hope you could give me some kind of reply on this haha."
<3

No school today. For the first time in how many years(???) it snowed here in Atlanta. :)))

Anniversary

This blog was born on this day.
And I love it so much. I cherish every comment, every picture I use, and every post.
I'm never letting this go.
End of story.
Today my readers, I realized something. I have been inspired. I have been inspired to focus on my dreams. I want to concentrate on them and keep a close watch. Through Jesus Christ, all things are possible. Through Him, my dreams will come true. The dream that my heart is yearning for so hungrily, is cheerleading. Cheerleading has always been my dream. I'm cheering now at a gym, but I want to get a little more serious. School squad and all-star. I'm going to make this happen. Nothing and NO ONE is going to stop me. I'm going to have to make some major sacrifices though, considering the fact that there isn't any money laying around. I'm going to talk to my dad. I love him so much, my readers. He doesn't give the family a lot of attention, because he's a workaholic. But ,I still hold him very near and dear to my heart. He makes time to listen when I need to talk. Insteading of having that unnecessary sweet sixteen party, I'm going to use that money for extra cheer training. Believe in me and keep me in your prayers.

Focus on your dreams. And through Jesus Christ, ANYTHING is possible. <3

By the way...
I made a gmail account just for you, my readers. If you would like advice, daily Bible verses, or just someone to talk to:jesusinyoureyes@gmail.com

I'm looking forward to those messages. :) Please email me. LOL.

Run home, baby. Your heart is ready.

Dear Self,

Babe, you're going home Friday. Aren't you excited? This time, it's going to be better for sure. You'll come back a whole new person... again.

Stronger.

Your life depends on this retreat, babe. && all your dreams will come true with God by your side. But don't forget the first time you finally let God's love come in. All those blessings, all that joy and celebration. Yeah, you found peace. Yeah, you found love. Guess what, Rose? It's going to happen again. Covecrest is your home. You belong there. The stars are dancing in the sky as we speak. Oh yes, those stars you adore. They will be there watching you while singing the praises of the Lord. And you will have a beautiful smile on your face, dancing with Jesus under the moonlight.

Smile, babe. 'Cause you're going home.

Love,

Me

If my heart says so

"You young ladies should be the dream catch for any man worth having. Beauty, brains, standards... you should be a gift to any guy. Choose one that take care of the present you are. You may come up against quite a few knuckleheads up here on campus, but believe me, there is a man made just for you. Payton, I know your mom was just for me, and I did everything I could to catch her.With all the fast girls running behind me, your mom refused to chase me or any other man.I knew with her, I had to come correct. She was on many guys' lists. That was because she wasn't laying down with no man she wasn't married to. All my friends wanted to be the guy that got her in the end. She was a confident brown fox, and I just had to have her. As the story went, I won her heart. Girls, don't settle for less than what you know in your heart is the very best man."

-'The Sweetest Gift' by Stephanie Perry Moore

Listen to your heart and don't give it away so quickly. Not everyone deserves a piece. Keep your eyes open and true and let God lead the way. I remember saying this over summer on here: "Guard your body and shield your heart, because anyone can just take it apart."

Sweetest 16

Sadie Hawkins. The group. :)

Caroline(sis) and me. Sadie Hawkins.
My birthday dinner at my favorite restaurant, Macaroni Grill!

My favorite! Me and Caroline!. :)

My birthday was lovely. I had cheerleading and absolutely no homework. My friends made signs and people wished me 'happy birthday' all day. On facebook, I got tons. Even my old boyfriend sent me a happy birthday wish. He's sweet. Then about two days after, there was the Sadie Hawkins dance. I had a lovely Sadie/birthday dinner with my friends on that day and we took a lot of pictures. Unfortunately, the dance was horrible. The music was a mess, and the whole thing really was a waste of time and money. Anyway, that is all for now. :) Valentine's day tomorrow. And, I hate it. I have never disliked it so much till this year. i use to like this day a whole lot! That's pretty ridiculous, considering the fact I'm a total romantic. I just wish the day will pass quickly or I can just skip the day or something. I will post. <3

Smile, because you're beautiful.

Your smile is beautiful, my girls.
And you're so lovely.
Smile. :)
Just do it.
Go to the mirror- right now. And whisper to yourself, "God made me. I am beautiful. I deserve good things, happy things, and sweet things just like everyone else."
Okay, you can come back now. :)
This is the month of love.
Actually, every day and every month should be about love. Love is all we truthfully and sometimes secretly yearn for the most. I noticed how my biology teacher (as sexist as she is. goodness. drives me mad.) hand held the absence of a ring. She is aged and bitter, and believes that men are simply 'bad apples' on the tree. My teacher wants love. I wouldn't be able to bare life without a man in my life.I'm generally a happy person. I can be quite energetic. Pep rallies, at cheer practice, and at games, oh yes I scream. :) In the mornings especially, I'm jamming to my ipod and speak way too loudly for my own good. I try not to get too upset or angry to the point it brings down my whole world. And laughter is my best friend. I am always laughing.

Several times, people (particularly Caroline, my sister) get irritated by it. "Rose, shut up!" Caroline would growl. My dad use to defend a lot at home. "Just leave her alone, He would say. "She's a happy kid." This past weekend I also learned that smiling at strangers can brighten up someone's day as well as your own! At the gym last Saturday, a cute boy looked back twice at me as I was walking the opposite direction. I caught his eyes and I plucked up the courage to beam at him. The boy smiled back at me and I promise you, I felt my heart flutter with exhilaration. Exchanging looks and smiles with a cute stranger is a sweet thing. :) And the funny thing is, I saw him again just yesterday at the gym! He acknowledged my presence, but I was too bashful to smile again. I also learned that complimenting strangers as well can do wonders to your day, as well as that particular person you're complimenting. While I was on my way to the hair ribbons aisle at Wal-Mart, I saw a girl and her blonde hair was in perfect wavy curls.

My, her hair was gorgeous. I just had to say something. The girl looked about my age, and she was busy picking out some food items from a rack. " I love your hair!" I squealed, grinning from ear to ear. The girl turned around and gave me the most beautiful smile. She was a very pretty girl. "My hair?! She gasped, pleasantly shocked. She giggled. "Aw thank you!" Try it, my readers. This works beautifully. Happiness is lovely and I am feeling crazy happy at this moment for no reason at all. Perhaps it's my light homework and I have a chance to go the gym. Or, that I'm feeling lucky and I'm entering a bunch of random contests to win free stuff. No it's not of that at all. It's the Lord that blesses me with happiness that leaves me breathless.Yep, it's Him. All Him. Although, I feel as if my academic and cheer life is slowly drifting me away from God. I'm just so busy nowadays. My prayers are just quick words of Thanks, God!' and I haven't written to Him for over a week. I have time tonight. I have to make time for my Father.


My 16th birthday is on Thursday!!!