Rejection

Rejection hurts. At times,rejection is the truth. Sometimes, rejection can be a good thing but, no one likes feeling bad. We all know the feeling, the feeling of your self esteem plummeting and sinking to a dangerous level. You start to think that you are simply not "good enough" for anything and you wonder if you should try again. Tears may fall, or anger might be felt. And then, you move on quietly. You don't make a scene and you fuss no longer. Sometimes, rejection straightens and motives us to work harder. Humans know the feeling of rejection too well. Some are immune to being pushed down consistently. After all, rejection can be anything. It hurts. It hurts everyone. Rejection is not suppose to be a wonderful feeling. As humans, you must ready yourself for disappointments.

I wish I looked Like...

Vanessa Anne Hudgens




She's so beautiful.

And I am


Not.

Boredom

What a horrible day. I didn't do one exciting thing. At this moment, I'm in the middle of homework. Just taking a break. My parents don't understand the fact that young people like to go out and enjoy themselves. I think it's like that with all adults. They fail to understand that young people naturally like to be out and explore. To have some sort of excitement. We don't like to be bored. Since we are limited, we can't do much. The adulthood is bitter and cold. A world I will soon enter. My parents divulge themselves in work that they simply don't have anytime to take me and my sisters out. I cannot wait to get my permit this coming summer. I turned 15 last month but I really want to study for it and pass. During the school year I'm just too busy. Gosh, I am so bored. My life is just boring. I try to make something happen but nothing conjures from the attempts. Perhaps I should just go back to studying. No. I rather write to you, my dear strangers. So tell me, what would like to know?

If Life wasn't so diffcult to bare... People will be alot happier.

Hello!
Gosh, it's been awhile since I've updated. Sorry. Terribly busy week. I meant to update yesterday but, I was too lazy. Lol. After all, it's weekend. I must say, this week went by quickly. I had soo much to do! I deserve this break. Anyway, nothing much has happened. Things haven't been going on so well. I'm actually feeling a bit down lately. The littlest things seem to get to me now. It sucks. My life sucks. If life wasn't so difficult to bare, then people will be a lot happier. As usually, I cannot explain myself, but you agree don't you? In this world, you can't get anything. You can't change anything. Why? Because, people still hold on to past. We can still feel the pain we lost a few seconds ago, the rejection that scarred your life years ago, and the tears that fell just hours ago. Wounds don't seem to disappear.

You must think of me as a bitter person. That, I look at life through a blurry lens. If you really know me, you would see me as a girl who is just baffled and hurt. When I look at society, I wonder why teenagers are to blame. I have to say that, you adults are to blame. You say that teenagers are idiots, that we "think we know everything"( A phrase that many adults use angers me sooo much. It's blunt, overused, and just downright immature.) You adults have no hope for teenagers. You look at us as hormonal failures, stubborn, and wild. Yes, we do make mistakes but you adults, make disasters. After all, adults are the ones who form the society. Not teenagers. I'm tired of you adults complaining. Just look at yourselves for once.


I'll stop there before I really lose it.

"If life wasn't so difficult to bare... people will be a lot happier." That quote speaks for itself. Ponder on it.

Phone Calls

It's Saturday night and I am sooo terribly bored! I haven't anywhere to go and there are no good books to read! This is so sad. I really don't want to do my homework either... I don't have much. I'll just do it tomorrow morning. Anyway, the thrift shop was alright. I volunteered with a lot of elderly people. They were really nice and were proud of my work. One woman was telling a bit of gossip. It was unnecessary but I listened attentively and smiled politely as she babbled. The thrift shop is really a boring place to volunteer. I would like to bring a huge group of my friends and my sisters next time. I think the other volunteers would like that. Oh, but I wish I was volunteering with my heart not because of school. Shamefully, I feel as if doing service projects for credit, like another long assignment. I couldn't help but look forward to the end and I glanced at the clock repeatedly.
*sigh*

I would really like for someone to call me. A friend of mine (whom I haven't spoken to in three months) randomly called me last Saturday. I was thrilled! I was so happy to hear his voice. He was on punishment since November sixth or so. Since then, I haven't heard anything.I love getting phone calls and text messages. It reassures me that someone is actually thinking of me. And they would like to hear my voice and listen to my thoughts. So remember strangers, when someone calls you, smile and pick up. After all, phones do have a lot of meaning. I can be on the phone for hours and hours chatting with my galfriends. Sometimes, phone calls can be really sweet and memorable, or they can cause some sort of angst and pain. A phone can be meaningless. They can draw people closer or send them apart.Words are powerful, dear friends. That is why, phone calls are stories.

Survey

Name:	Steffie Rose
Birthday:	February 5, 1993
Birthplace:	Jacksonville, Florida
Current Location:	Some where in Georgia
Eye Color:	dark brown
Hair Color:	black
Height:	5' 2''
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	African-American (Ghanian also a little bit of Dutch and German as well!)
The Shoes You Wore Today:	Pink Ballet flats
Age:	15
Your Fears:	Failing at life.
Your Perfect Pizza:	Pepperoni!!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Making straight A's throughout highschool
Celebrity Crushes:	Nick Jonas, Ryan Sheckler, Shia Leabouf, Zac Efron, JJ from NLT, Patrick Breeding from B5, Brad Pitt, David A. from American Idol, Teddy Geiger...
Rap or rock?	Rock! Rap is gross.
Your Best Physical Feature:	My hair. Lol
Obama or Clinton	I like both.
Your Most Missed Memory:	Childhood
Do you Swear:	No
Do you Sing:	Yes
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes
Have you Been in Love:	No. Just infatuated.
Do you want to go to College:	Yes!!
Do you want to get Married:	Yes!!!! And start a family.
Do you belive in yourself:	Sometimes.
Favorite flower	Red and white roses.
Do you think you are Attractive:	No, not really.
Are you a Health Freak:	No
Do you get along with your Parents:	Sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	They're kind of exciting.
Do you play an Instrument:	The Violin for four years. Guitar next!
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Heck no.
In the past month have you Smoked:	Heck no.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	never
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yes!! Sadie Hawkins Dance! My first date<3>
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yeah! Last weekend and I'm going today.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Mmmm that sounds good right now.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Never had a boyfriend.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	Uh, gross much?
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Of course not.
Ever been Drunk:	No
New York or California	California! Spring break!!!
Texting or talking on the phone?	Phone. I talk a lot. Lol.
What country would you most like to Visit:	France
Are you romantic?	Yes. :)
Religion	Roman Catholic
Grade	9th. Go Freshmen!!!
Do you have a crush?	Yes!
Favorite Food	Italian
Summer or winter	Summer!
Favorite Holiday	Christmas. People seem to get closer around the holiday season.
First kiss?	Still waiting... :)
Favorite actresses	Emma Watson, Reese Witherspoon, Jennifer Hudson, Vanessa Hudgens... can't think right now lol.
Favorite Television show	Degrassi... when it's apporiate.
Favorite singer:	Mariah Carey!!

Hello! Good morning. Happy Saturday. I am sooo happy it's the weekend. I'm not doing much today. I'm volunteering three hours of my time at the St. Vincent De Paul thrift shop for service hours. I might catch a movie afterwards with my sister and probably make some phone calls. My weekends are pretty boring and since my friends and I cannot drive nor do we live close to each other. I have cohorts scatter all over Georgia. I have a huge group of them that live close by but, since I go to a different school, I never see them or talk them as much anymore. There are some friends that I have that I haven't seen since the last day of eighth grade. I wish there was a school dance of some sort-something to look forward to. I never really have anything to look forward these days.